Where paradise turns to hell
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Los Angeles already has its hook on me
I don’t want to fall in love again!
Permanent Summer with Palm Trees and Canyons
My Great Shitting and Peeing Period
I can
kiss my career in politics goodbye
Why have I not thought of that first?
Whatever it is you couldn’t stand about me
My new big venture will destroy everything
How and why has this reached me?
Can I be even more metaphysical than that?
Los Angeles does not really exist
One billion
deaths is not enough for me
Private Equity, our New Religion
We may still save humanity in America
Hail to the bugs, the true leaders of this world
Do I have to be completely off my mind?
I must be drunk to provoke you like that
I came to Los Angeles to
become a positive force
Beyond that Californian Mountain
I want
to be a Damn Modern Californian Hippy!
Study your
symbolism, for god’s sake!
You tried to get me sacked, this is War
The
World is filled with Backstabbers
Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell, I’ve been told to stop talking about
my sexuality
Drinking yourself to death in L.A.
They’ve
been testing me, like a rat!
Oh my God! How will I survive this?
I finally
went to Disney Land, Heek!
Got to get
back to some sense of normality
It always
comes back to that, isn’t it?
Feeling orgasmic about… another project
500,000 people in New Orleans need mental health services
The
Decline of the Gay American Empire
Tomorrow will be such a great day all over L.A.!
I can
get away with murder, remember that
One more day in the Bible Belt, and I might have to shoot
you all
Desperate for a gun in America
The Mormon’s
Disney Land in Utah
What Salt
Lake City has got to offer
Let me
buy you out just to shut you up
Just
continue to follow the trends
Compensating for being Extra Fat
I’ve survived
another suicide attempt
I cannot be trusted, I will fail every time
Another legal action against me
Desperately
Seeking Pubic Lice Lotion in L.A.
You must think I’m an old pervert
Notice of Resignation, The Perfect Sample Letter
Whatever your achievements, it will always be useless
Living
beyond everyone’s expectations
Do we need
to alienate the whole world?
I have lived! And now I can die…
I am lost
Took a wrong turn at some point
And now I have been shipped to
Without my will
Without being aware
Just followed destiny
The path all laid out for me
Destiny must be wrong
I don’t feel right
I belong to
I belong to
Oh my King, will you ever forgive me
For abandoning you like this
Sacrificing everything for something I
don’t believe in
Seemed so attractive at the time
Seemed so promising and filled with opportunities
Which have not materialized
Perhaps it is because I have done nothing
since I am here
I have not tried to connect to anyone
I am so tired
Just thinking about doing anything is a
killer
I just want to go to bed and sleep forever
I have no more dreams
No more goals
I am as good as dead
Killed my last hope
You can have all the talent in the world
You can have all the potential that you
will ever need
You can be driven to madness with your work
And write and write and write until you
drop dead
You can have produced everything there is
under the sun
You can have done it all and then done it
all again
And yet, you are not going anywhere anytime
soon
You can move closer to the buzz
You can be right in the middle of it all
Where it is all happening
And yet, nothing is happening
Nothing will ever happen
You are stuck on this planet forever
With nowhere to go
Nothing to hope for
Disillusioned by what life has to offer
For your happiness at least
The void, the big large void
You have never existed
You will never exist
Thirty years completely wasted
Where would I be today
Without those stupid dreams
That drove me to insanity?
Not in
What was I thinking?
I must be mad
How can I correct my mistake?
How can I go back in time
And stop this from ever happening
How can I just erase those last few months
How can I change my life for the better?
Is there not a quick guide
An instruction book somewhere?
To make everything easier
To prevent you from destroying your life
And the life of others who love you?
I am in a Black Hole
The biggest of all
At the end of the funnel
I’ll be crushed
I think I’ve reached that point
There is no going back
No one escapes Black Holes
You would have thought I would have seen it
coming
You would have thought I would have found a
way out
Dreams make you blind
Dreams bring your downfall
I will have to pay for my mistakes
I will never go anywhere
Ever again
I told myself
No more will I think of suicide
No more will I be so depressed
I need some positivism in my life
It is all psychological anyway
I just have to change my attitude towards
life
I was going to become alive
Under the great Californian sun
I was going to grow
Be more mature
Finally become an adult
Take my responsibilities
Sort myself out
You don’t change
You can move
You can forget your past
You can re-organize your life
You never change
At least I am not suicidal anymore
It is all psychological anyway
I do not let these thoughts come alive
I no longer drink myself to death
And let the devil in
Temptation, temptation, temptation
The little devil is coming back in
I can’t stop him
I’ll have to become suicidal again
I have not found what I was looking for in
A few palm trees out of my window
A Californian driving license
A tour of all the studios in
Just won’t do the trick
I don’t belong to this world
Even if I were to belong
I cannot belong in just a small capacity
That’s not me, that’s not what I want
I don’t want to be a name in the final
generic
I want to be central to my revolution
I want to create the biggest revolution
ever
I want to have such an impact
It will shake the planet
Oh, now I understand what my problem is
Of course there’s no solution
To my insatiable thirst for power
I want to be a force of nature
Who could ever be a force of nature?
I could not, it is impossible
Anyway
I’m afraid
Palm trees
Just won’t do
Work tomorrow
I would do anything not to go
I’ve got to work on my other projects
tonight
I would do anything not to
I’ve got some dreams to make come true
I would do anything to just forget about it
all
I wish I was a bum
With no jobs
With no aspirations
Without a dream
So simple life could have been
Just be a bum
Don’t worry about anything
No more stupid ideas
No more obligations
No more anything
Just live your day to day bum’s life
What a wonderful concept!
Instead of being a corporate drone
Instead of being an industry whore
Instead of being a bitch and be control by
bitches
Just be a bum!
Save yourself the trouble
No more work ever!
No more responsibilities ever!
No more goals to achieve, ever!
Just go back where you came from
And just die there on some social
securities
Or just make your bed somewhere on a lost
street
Or in a park in the woods
Eat from the garbage cans
Or find some eatable roots or something
Or just let yourself die in the gutter
Perfect for me
That’s what I’ll do next
Let me work on it
Let me reorganize my schedule to make it
come true
Let me start dreaming about it
It is my next big goal in life
I’ll become a bum
Your first rate bum
And I’ll be the happiest bum alive
Without the faculty of thinking
How I wish I was a bum…