Book of Songs
The best of my dark
poetry
By
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Preface
This is the best of my
dark poetry, six books in all, written during the last 15 years. This book of
songs was put together at the request of a musician friend of mine who was
looking for songs. I thought, I may as well put it online and see if others are
interested.
There are two sections,
the normal songs which could be adapted into any style, and the rap/heavy metal
section. That last section does not mean that the songs really need to be rap or
heavy metal songs, however they appear to be better spoken than sang, or they
are a bit more extreme, in the spirit of rap/heavy metal songs.
If you are interested
in turning these into songs, even modify them for your needs, and perhaps
recycle many good lines from different songs to make new ones, please contact
me and we will come to an arrangement.
Though this is
copyrighted work, you can distribute them around for free with my name and
contact details on them, and even put them online elsewhere as long as you link
them to my website. If you turn them into songs, I will then have to be
recognized as the author, or co-author if you wish to
modify or add to them.
Part 1 – Any Style Songs
It always
comes back to that, isn’t it?
My new big venture will
destroy everything
Poetry to Galvanise a Whole Generation
I am Saint Karen from
New York
I don’t want
to fall in love again!
Permanent Summer
with Palm Trees and Canyons
Whatever it
is you couldn’t stand about me
Los Angeles
does not really exist
Hail to the
bugs, the true leaders of this world
Beyond that Californian Mountain
Tomorrow
will be such a great day all over L.A.!
I cannot be
trusted, I will fail every time
I have lived!
And now I can die…
I Go from One Extreme to the Other
There’s Nothing Worse Than People With
Principles
Oh Gloria, If You Hadn’t Loved Cider So Much . . .
Dear God, Let Me Be Done With It
Come On, Damn It, I’ve Got a Life
to Live
Part 2 – Rap/Heavy Metal Songs (more extreme)
We may still save humanity
in America
The
World is filled with Backstabbers
They’ve
been testing me, like a rat!
Have you lost Faith in Destiny?
Oh please let me be happy again!
Everyone needs to start somewhere
History has got nothing to do with you
Study your
symbolism, for god’s sake!
Desperate for a gun in
America
Let me
buy you out just to shut you up
The
Mormon’s Disney Land in Utah
Notice of Resignation, The Perfect Sample Letter
A Serious Problem with Authority
I’m Going to Find Myself a Whore
I’m Your Inflatable Virgin Mary
Part 1 – Any Style Songs
It
always comes back to that, isn’t it?
(chorus:)
It always comes back to
that, isn’t it?
Oh yes it does
Dear me
I’ve seen it comin’
I always do
What is it this time?
What is this big secret
which will again
Devastate me?
Irretrievably change my
life
To keep me exactly
where I am now
Where we’ve always
been?
It always comes back to
that, isn’t it?
Oh yes it does
Dear me
I’ve seen it comin’
I always do
Oh please!
Can we live this life
without anymore downfalls?
Is it not possible to
live a life
Of
total inaction?
All you need is one day
To destroy it all
When all we have ever
been able to reach
Is the bottom of the ocean
Deeper and deeper
It always comes back to
that, isn’t it?
Oh yes it does
Dear me
I’ve seen it comin’
I always do
No matter how hard you
try
To reach some sort of
happiness
Just for a while
It can never last
You get right back to
square one
Always
It always comes back to
that, isn’t it?
Oh yes it does
Dear me
I’ve seen it comin’
I always do
Another disaster
Another crisis
Some suffering
A lot of crying
Once again completely
lost
Alone in the world
With great unexplored
vastness in front of our eyes
Wishing we could fly
and reach it all
Discover a new horizon
Less horrible than the
precedent
As a law of nature
We can only find
Worse
It always comes back to
that, isn’t it?
Oh yes it does
Dear me
I’ve seen it comin’
I always do
It always comes back to
that, isn’t it?
Yes, it always comes
back to that
It always comes back to
that, isn’t it?
Yes, it always comes
back to that
There’s no way out for
people like us…
There’s no way out for
people like us…
There’s no way out for
people like us.
Reaching an
Crisis Mode
Panic Attack
Here we are
The End of Days
Just like in the movies
It was all true after
all
I can’t think anymore!
I can’t breathe
anymore!
I’ve reached another
Crisis Mode
Panic Attack
Right here on
Dying on the street in
How was that a
surprise?
They were all born here
They all died here
The legends
Drunk to full capacity
Drugged to full
capacity
This is where
Over the cliff
Crisis Mode
Panic Attack
The End of Days
For me to discover now
To understand
To assimilate
To digest
The enormity of it
The enormity of it all
I will accept my
destiny
I will go through it
all
I will live through
hell
But
I will survive
My
My new big venture will destroy
everything
(chorus
1:)
This time I will hit it
big
Yes I will
Another big crazy idea
Just have to pursue it
Until it drains all my
energy
And destroy just about
Everything else that is
still standing in my life
My new big venture!
It will revolutionize
everything
Once again
Never mind that none of
my other big ventures
Never went anywhere
(chorus
2:)
Maybe
Just Maybe
One day
It will revolutionize
everything
It will be huge
It will change
everything
By destroying
Just about
Everything else
Still standing
In my
life…
Maybe
Just Maybe
One day
It will revolutionize
everything
I won’t stop now!
I have another big
venture idea
That will change
everyone’s life
For the worst
It is in the nature
Of every new big
venture
This time I will hit it
big
Yes I will
Just have to be crazy
enough
To sacrifice everything
Once again
For just any
New great big venture
Maybe
Just Maybe
One day
It will revolutionize
everything
This time I will hit it
big
Yes I will
I know it
Yes I do
Yes I will
I know it
Yes I do
Yes I will
I will
Will
She is legendary
She is powerful
Intelligent
My imaginary girlfriend
She wants it all the
time
She begs for more
She wants to please me
all the way
My imaginary girlfriend
Just as well
Being so unremarkable
That my imaginary
girlfriend
Is just imaginary
She’s filthy rich
More successful than
Madonna
And pure of heart
My imaginary girlfriend
I can depend on her
I love her and she
truly loves me
She even knows how to
shut up
My imaginary girlfriend
Just as well
Being so unremarkable
That my imaginary
girlfriend
Is just imaginary
She does not smoke
She does not drink
She’s certainly not a
drug addict
My imaginary girlfriend
She’s not a bitch
She’s not killing me
She does not need to be
shot in the head
My imaginary girlfriend
Just as well
Being so unremarkable
That my imaginary
girlfriend
Is just imaginary
Oh dear, oh dear
What have I done?
I offended you
I stole everything from you
I understood the whole of your miserable life
I took pity on you
Oh dear, oh dear
What have I done?
You’re my best friend, my only friend
I love you more than you could imagine
I thought that you were mine and no one else’s
But you have a life I know nothing about
Oh dear, oh dear
What have I done?
I did not mean to
I’ve destroyed everything
In less time than it took to establish this impossible
friendship
At least you know me, I was wild
from the beginning
Oh dear, oh dear
What have I done?
Could this be the end of that friendship?
Is it impossible to forgive whatever it was?
Are we going to be strangers even in the promised
land?
It depends entirely on you
Oh dear, oh dear
What have I done?
I’ve got a headache
No problem
Just all my energy
Ready to explode
I’ve got this urge in me
To make another world from this world
Look, it’s there, it’s here . . .
A real world!
I’m not mad
I’m not dead
I’ve got all this for you
And it’s ready to explode
You won’t have time to see
Won’t have time to hear
Even though it’s all around you
I’m ready to explode
I’m going to inspire the masses
I’m inspiring the masses
With whispers
As powerful as guns
Come on, come on!
I’m alive!
I cry out to life!
We’re going to create this world!
We’re motivated enough to get somewhere
To build a new world
Recreate an earthly paradise
You’ve heard me!
Get going!
There are still things to inspire you in this world
Things to save lost souls
We can’t forget that hell is waiting to explode
Can’t forget who we are
Our humble origins can become great
Be proud of what we represent
And fulfil a great destiny
Enough of self-absorption
Self-pity
We are as huge as the universe
We are the universe!
Ready to explode!
There’s a life after life
An existence after what they’ve made us see
It’s strong and powerful!
It’s all the energy necessary to be born
It’s the sum of all the good songs
Of all the marginal personalities
It’s what inspires people to achieve the impossible
It’s what makes a people a great people
This infinite urge will be born in all nations of the
universe
An enormous structure free from the shackles of the past
An extraordinary new inspiration
We’ll march all over the surface of the universe!
Understand the infinite capacity of everything
Understand the infinite definition of the world
Assimilating the whole world
Assimilating universal knowledge
Nothing will stop our progress through civilisations
No law, no ambitious wretch
No civil duty
We’ll live and live and live in total freedom!
The freedom to breathe
The freedom to act
The freedom to be
Freedom!
Poetry to Galvanise a Whole Generation
There was a time when poetry saved lives
A time when a young man would travel the roads of
To look for adventure on the open sea
Calling up a whole world of the imagination
And rejecting all convention
That was poetry to galvanise a whole generation
Now is the time when poetry saves lives
A time when the young travel the roads of the world
To look for adventure on the open sea
Calling up a whole world of the imagination
And rejecting all convention
That’s poetry to galvanise a whole generation
There will be a time when poetry saves lives
A time when the young will travel the roads of the world
To look for adventure on the open sea
Calling up a whole other world
And rejecting all convention
That will be poetry to galvanise a whole generation
Forgive me God for I have sinned
I thought in my madness that I could save the world
I thought I could make a difference
I thought I had the power to change things
They deported me
They put me in prison
They stripped me of all the rights I’d been granted
They stripped me of all the hope I’d built up for myself
I deserve it
I was deaf
I was blind
I wasn’t up to it
Now I’m silent
Now I’m invisible
Now I’m dead
Is that what you want?
Now there can be no pardon
No possible understanding
No magic vision
In my mind you’re dead
Oh God, how your logic puts us in the wrong
How your will fails to move us
How your wisdom is unknown to us
My sentence is that of humanity
We’ve all sinned
We’ve all thought we could save the world
We’ve all thought we could make a difference
We’ve all thought we had the power to change things
We all failed
Our terrible sentence
Have they even got any hope in life?
Any joy in seeing daylight fill
space?
Are they still thinking about science, philosophy and
politics?
Do they think they’ll discover psychology one day, late in
the evening?
And has the wonderful world of money yet been born?
It’s called the world of marketing and sales
With project managers and managing directors
God must have created these things as irony or as vengeance
Once I saw a garden
Radishes, carrots, tomatoes
Earth and flowers
I didn’t see the advent of the business world written in
the stars
Nor that of political wretchedness
I see the joy of someone who knows and can do nothing
Who walks free from every plague, every thought
Going out with no pressure, no qualifications
And walking all day without thinking about anything at all
A world that’s forgotten his existence
A world that doesn’t think any more
But lives and breathes
I walk in the wind
Learn to unlearn
To forget whatever we’ve tried to understand
Free myself from these machines and this noise
Flee from people running in all directions
I’m in quest of inaction
I want total emptiness
I want to live
Oh God!
They were all born in their own little world
They all interpreted your existence according to their own
ideas
They all wrote their own bible and believed in it
They all thought they knew everything
They all thought they were right
They all waged war to impose their own ideas
They all killed in your name
Oh God!
Did you want so many nations and such wretchedness?
So many births and deaths?
Can pardon, absolution, ever come from all this hell?
We’re born, we die, just where we
are
Freedom of thought has never motivated us
We all have our own laws, our own ways of doing things
They all waged war for their own ends
They all killed in your name
Oh God!
Didn’t you want us to convert our enemy?
Didn’t you want us to understand our enemy?
Didn’t you want us to help our enemy?
Didn’t you want us to love our enemy even if he kills us?
They all waged war
They all killed in your name
They’re all guilty
You probably wanted anarchy on earth?
I wanted to achieve great things
And I achieved them
I wanted to love the world
And I loved it
I wanted to travel over the oceans of the universe
And I travelled there
I wanted to understand the universe
And I understood it
I wanted to create wonderful things
And I created them
You don’t understand!
I’ve done everything
Loved everything
Understood everything
Created everything
But God’s work is never done
It’s always ongoing
And all the more majestic for that
It’s infinite
And I lack the energy
I lack the energy to achieve great things
To love infinitely
Understand infinitely
Create infinitely
I lack the energy to live in infinity
Who’s looking for life?
Is there life in this world?
I’ve been searching for it all my life
Late at night in the streets of the world
And I can now say
Death is the whole world
Death is in everything
Death is everywhere
So I can’t speak this language
So I’m here in this world without the right to life
And I still find a way of expressing myself
On all the oceans of this planet
There’s no land which can support life
Only hell
Words have no meaning
No way of expressing what I feel
The result of so many years of ordeal
Has only brought despair
In a world where I’ve got everything
It’s still not enough
I’m dying
I wrote some twenty-five volumes on the subject
You didn’t listen to a word
You produced a work on inspiring politicians
I didn’t listen to a word
You wanted to revolutionise everything, thought your nation
great and glorious
Nobody listened
I wanted to study something interesting in your
universities
You didn’t listen to a word
You wanted my support and hard work
I didn’t listen to a word
You wanted to tear my country apart to be born among the
nations of the universe
Nobody listened
I wanted to play my part, I wanted
to be what I am
You didn’t listen to a word
You scolded me for my way of life, for not being part of my
nation
I didn’t listen to a word
Now you’ve got need of new blood because you’re dying
Nobody will listen to you again
It’s always possible to leave those you love
It’s always possible to follow other paths
It’s always possible to challenge everything from morning
to night
It’s always possible to begin to live again
Be happy and free!
Create your own universe, even if you have to rewrite all
the dictionaries
You’ll be surprised at the results you can achieve
A personal success going well beyond what anyone else has
hoped
It’s possible to make your life over again!
It’s possible to build a new world!
It’s possible to succeed according to your own principles!
It’s possible to be happy!
Being marginal has never been forbidden
Losing the respect of others has never been a problem
Saying that others are wrong is acceptable
Making a difference is something to be wished for
The only thing that counts is the final reckoning at the
end of our lives
The only results that count are those we’ve wanted to
achieve ourselves
We must free ourselves from everyone else
Be marginal and make a difference
Oh God my darling
You will see tonight what motivates a man
To continue in this world
Oh God, don't let me down
How nice it is to be on top of the world again
Knowing everything there is to know about everything
Did you know you could know beyond the horizon
All the things you used to know
All thrown out the window
Oh dear
There is always another way to see things
To interpret reality
Oh god knows if without it I would not be alive
To talk about it without talking about it
God my darling
You will see tonight what motivates a man
So many songs could motivate you tonight
So many people that could electrify you
And you are thinking of death
Smoking cigarettes until you spit blood
Drinking until you cannot see anymore
Did you have dreams?
Did you think you could change the world?
I do
I have the most wonderful dreams
I am changing the world
I am
Though I do not think anymore
Of wonders and peace and infinities
The horse has spoken
Destroyed my ideals
No matter
What good are ideals when you have the dream?
I won't sleep tonight
I will be awake and talking about what matters most
To drive you crazy
I will open your eyes
I will open your eyes to the real world
Being the driving force behind a nation
Thinking of new ways to be immortal
Deepest sights and glories
I'll show you, make you understand
That you do not see and do not understand
My deepest thoughts
Frightening views of the underworld
What is happening to this world without your knowledge
Isn't that great
Oh God my darling
You will see tonight what motivates a man
To continue in this world
Oh God, don't let me down
God my darling
You will see tonight what motivates a man
Wasteland
Vast wasteland in front of you all
All you were ever able to produce and protect till death
It contains your life story
Your information in the making
DNA lost and lost and lost in and around
Like a slinky going through the heavens
The snakes walking in the spiral of your downfall
3D world for 2D people in a 1D thinking process
Oh shit, have I said too much for your poor mind?
You don't see
You don't understand
Because I don't want you to
I am killing myself over you
I am killing myself for you
I am the person who will injure you for what you represent
I am the rebel of your destiny
Your useless destiny
I don't need my 15 minutes of fame
To communicate that to you in a way that will never reach
you
It is exploding in your face
You have never tried
To see beyond matter
Foolish destiny
You do not have the freedom of decision
You never had
Where you are now and where you are going was not written
It is happening and will happen without your consent,
without your decisions
It had to be, there is no other way
Where you are going now is computable
It obeys mathematical equations and there is no freedom of
thought
Even I cannot free myself from it
Why bother then? God only knows
How sad must it be to know that we had no other choice than
be stupid
Obeying some sort of laws of irrationality beyond
comprehension
Cannot commit suicide because there is no other way
Cannot be intelligent because there is no other way
You follow your own course, you cannot deviate
You do not choose
You do not really think
It was predetermined by nobody
That nobody that has the last laugh though it serves no
purpose
Philosophy was going to happen one day
It was nice to think it meant something
Obviously it never meant anything
How else would you know exactly what will happen tomorrow?
There is no free will in this world
It is a pointless world
Can't commit suicide, it was not written in the stars
Unfortunately
I feel like I could almost feel it
I feel like I could almost reach it
Oh, it is all there to grasp and understand
And yet it is out of my reach!
Sometimes I understand
I can see beyond everything
I can surmise how the universe works
I can change destiny
Must be because I am totally disconnected
Must be because I am mad
I am certainly crazy
Visions or dreams?
Have I told you my brain is not working properly?
I am schizophrenic
I am suffering from epileptic seizures
Hallucinations of all sorts
That is how I finally connect the dots
That is how finally everything makes sense
That is why I understand the universe
That is why I understand that reality does not make any
sense
I feel like I could almost feel it
I feel like I could almost reach it
Oh, it is all there to grasp and understand
And yet it is out of my reach!
I see a well on the horizon
Quickly I go there and throw some money in it
I am so empty
I make a wish
Will all my dreams come true?
All the changes in my life that I wish
for?
Will I suddenly be rich and famous?
No need to do anything anymore till the day I die?
Oh you, well of my destiny
Make all my desires come true
The world coming to a stop
To see what it is they live for
I am so simple minded
So stupid that spiders creeping on the wall don’t realize
How worthless I have become
Still I have this complex of superiority
Does not make much sense
Oh, well of my destiny
Help me understand what my purpose in life is
I have lost any kind of motivation
As incomprehensible as these old expressions are
Perhaps you do not mean anything after all
Wishing well of my destiny
I am empty
As empty as you
I am Saint Karen from
(Co-written
with Saint Karen)
I am Saint
Karen from
The
isolation is intense
That's why
it is so refreshing to think
Why is
everyone so afraid of confrontational honesty?
I even
encounter it in the angst subcultures
It seems
like fake angst is accepted because it is a packaging marketing gimmick
But real raw
existential panic is hard for people to digest
I certainly
see it in the local music scene
Sometimes it's
easy for me to feel insecure about myself
But then I
just have to plow forward and realize that I must keep agitating the sleepy
masses
I like to
think of myself as Joan of Arc
Who knows
maybe she was in touch with her nothingness
I noticed I
mention God a lot
God has
always been an influence
Did he
eventually ever fall in love?
Did he have
a 9 to 5 job anywhere in this world?
Then he
would understand what I am going through
Well I
thought a lot about spirituality
Got me
nowhere, as expected
I guess I will
never see the light
Condemned to
walk this earth till the end of time
Causing
trouble in the mist of
Forever and
ever
My vision
That is my
destiny
Stuck in a Time
Oh God
I am back where I was
Where I have always been
What is it I have to learn here that I have not learnt
before?
Are you not worried that I will get bored out of my mind?
That suddenly suicide will become very attractive to me?
Seeing the end of this life means everything to me
Nothing new on the horizon
Nothing new
I have tasted something else you know
I am getting somewhere, or so I thought
But I am not
I am still here
Stuck in this time loop forever
I can’t bear it anymore
I do not want that
I want my freedom
I want to live!
To explode on the universe
Have an impact beyond comprehension
I want to dictate!
I want to change the world!
I don’t want to be stuck here
I don’t want to get back to square one
Every damn minute of my existence
Where’s the way out?
What can I do to change my life?
I don’t care if you don’t think like I do
I don’t care if you don’t agree with what I am
I won’t be stuck in this time loop any longer
I will change everything for the better
No more authority
No more hierarchy
No more daily routine till death
No more anything you have ever known
I do not accept this way of life
I will break this loop
I will be free
If I were to dictate around here
God forbid
Things would work
If I were to control your destiny
God forbid
You would meet the biggest wall of all
If I were to decide to act
God forbid
The end of the world would be near
If I were to shoot you
God forbid
You would be dead
If I could control the elements
God forbid
I would be halfway across the galaxy by now
If I could devise the plans
God forbid
We would be a higher form of life right now
If I could invent life
God forbid
Life would mean something
If I could live
God forbid
I would live to the maximum
If I could cry
God forbid
I would cry
If I could just be aware for one long second
God forbid
I would see and understand everything there is to
understand in this meaningless existence
But there is no chance of that since
God forbid!
There is no point in anything
I am out of this world
I don’t exist here
What do you expect?
Richness and wonders?
La huitième merveille du
monde?
La fin du monde?
I have been expecting it
Takes too long to happen
Nothing contents me
Nothing makes me happy
Distractions, well…
They don’t last
Happy world
Everything is nice and expected
I need more
I need much more
More than you could ever provide
I need to get out of here
Out of this universe
To understand everything
But I already do
I am out of here
I live somewhere else
I understand everything
There is nothing to understand
I am a program
That cannot see beyond the programming
And when I catch a glimpse
I see that there is no point in going any further
Being out of ones mind
Out of this world
And see what is out there
And it is the same
The same shit
At another level
Big deal
Is there a point to all this?
Perhaps if I die tonight I might find out
I had enough
Of these dreams
Of this unexpected breakthrough
Of these infinite possibilities
How I got myself in such a situation
That I have five days left to live
Before it is all over once again
Until I find the next idea
The next solution that will get me going for another five
days
I can no longer live like that
I had enough
I refuse to continue
To hope for a better life
To hope for all my dreams to come true
I have made my decision
Gone!
Gone this life I dreamt of
Never have I been so close
I don’t care
That’s it
I had enough
One more drink is all that I need to finally connect the
dots
I won’t dream anymore that someone will come and save me
This only happens in films and maybe not
I’m as good as dead
I cannot pay anymore for all my faults
I cannot live anymore for all my dreams
It is all beyond me now
I am as good as dead
I have finally reached rock bottom
I never thought I would reach it
I always hoped for something, anything
Now I know it was all useless
I am not expecting anything from God
I am not expecting anything from anyone
Because even a miracle would not save me now
Something has changed in me
I don’t want any savior anymore
I don’t want to be saved
I am beyond hope
I have known it for a while
I did not want to admit it
I have tried so hard!
To get out of my misery
And now I don’t want to
Fight anymore
Survive anymore
Hope anymore
This is my will
Delete me
Delete my life
Delete everything!
I do not want to have existed
I was never meant to be!
I am a mistake
Why was I ever born?
I did not want to!
I don’t want this life
I never wanted it!
Let me go!
Let me die!
Please, I’ll do anything!
Anything to have never existed!
I was not meant to be
I was not meant to exist
I need to correct this mistake
I need to be deleted
I need to die
Every night I dream of green fields
Wherever they are
That is what I need to fall asleep
I always get back to that
Green fields
Peace of mind, peace
From you, your existence, your babblings
I always need a break
Dream is my escape
There I don’t really exist
There are no consequences
No memories
I don’t know where I come from
I cannot remember anything superfluous
Nothing that can be
linked to a useless name
To a life of some sort
I am out of here!
Nothing will ever save me!
I’ve always known that
Sad I never did anything concrete about it
Except walk around endlessly
In what I thought was my little universe
It is way too small!
Look at the stars!
It is infinite!
What am I doing here then?
God knows…
I was not meant to be human
I was meant to be the Universe
I am supposed to create the world
In seven seconds
Every day
As many worlds as is necessary
To get lost everywhere every second of the day
One day I am here, the next I am there
I am all over the place!
I am everywhere!
As many places as I can think of
As many universes that I can create
An infinite amount of me in as many universes as there are
I do not know of any reality
I’ve never known of anyone’s existence
This is the beginning of a new destiny!
Splashed over the stars and galaxies
This is where I belong!
There are green fields everywhere
Even in the darkest spots in the universe
Where no one ever went and will ever go
Let’s face it, you do not need to
exist
I see you every day walking everywhere for no reason
There are billions of you and you are not bothered by that
How useless you are in this mass of the same thing
Countless human beings with no brain
Not one of them wondering why they are here or alive
Should not deserve to be here or alive
There is place for only one soul in my green fields, mine
And mine alone
I don’t see billions of faces
That all look the same to me
With the same story to tell
Ahhh! Emotions, feelings,
love, conflicts, a desire to assert oneself
You’re all the same
You are but one person!
But not with me
I am the Marginal
I am out of your identical and meaningless identity
I am the one apart from the masses
I do not understand you
I do not want to be part of you
I do not walk like one in between you when I walk brainless
around you
I look at you all and I wonder
I am not part of this
I am not like them
I’m not sure why
I just know
I don’t belong here
Just because I understand that all this is meaningless
That I am only one in billions
I know I am not the same somehow
I know I am different
And I know you despise me for being different
I know you do not want me in your society
You know I don’t belong there
You hate it when someone is not like you
You hate it when someone stops to think some more about the
world
You hate it when someone is different, you don’t want them
there
They could question you, judge you
They could question why you exist
They could understand how small you are
You know
And I know too
You think there are billions of different personalities
You secretly know there is only one and the same
personality
And you share that same identity with everyone on this
planet
I am different, I am unique
And thank God for that!
Otherwise there would certainly be no point in living
With a useless job title to justify some sort of meaning to
one’s existence
I have my corner of the universe
I possess one little house somewhere
Let’s locate it by satellite
Here it is
That dot lost in between countless dots
That’s you!
Proud achievement!
Useless achievement
I live in my green fields
And they are nowhere to be found, for you that is
(Descent Into Hell)
How many times have I found myself here?
Hundreds of times
Did I see light on the horizon?
Never
But I’m never alone here
I see familiar faces
I meet famous people
Will we all be here?
My descent into hell is infernal
It burns me completely
It eats me away inside until there’s nothing left
That’s my destiny
A zombie in the caverns of this world
Seeing dimly at the summits of this life
We’ve all been going round in circles since the beginning
of time
How could we have been happy?
With this guilt that eats us
This regret that burns us up
This remorse that kills us
It’s a descent into hell
Well, I’m not going to moulder away here
I’m not going to die here
I’m going to get my things together and go up to the
surface again
For having suffered so much here on earth, I too am going
to heaven
An endless desert
An endless road
The feeling that you’ll never see civilisation again
Running out of water or petrol, that’s all it needs
On this road which is badly in need of
repair
And without a single tourist
This was the moment you chose to make your latest outburst
I panicked, went into the ditch
We hit each other with our fists
I went off into the mountains, or whatever you call those
canyons, with my face all bloody
I didn’t want you to find me
I didn’t want anyone to find me ever again
I walked for a long time and I never felt I was in any
danger
Rage made me forget I had no way of getting back to
You had all my meagre possessions
It wasn’t the first time I’d left everything behind
Your bad temper had become my bad temper
Your problems had become my problems
Your moaning had become my moaning
Your hell had become my hell
And suddenly, lost there alone in the desert
I looked at the sky, the sun and the white moon you see in
daytime
And I felt good
I felt happy
Your bad temper, your problems, your moaning, your hell
Were no longer mine
You had already gone on towards
I was about to die there alone in
And I felt wonderful
I had no more problems
No more moaning on the horizon, just some strange trees
In
I was in paradise!
Purity of mind
Innate clarity
The brain breathes
Oops! It’s fallen
Get up! It’s fallen
Aaargh!
What a lovely day
Such a nice breeze
Let’s walk in the park
Ah, the trees are in blossom!
I need that now
I’d like to doze off here
Sleep for hundreds and hundreds of years
Wake up again when the world has disappeared
I’m not thinking about anything any more
I’m creating a void
Filling myself with this view
It’s starting to rain
I’m on earth
I see the blue sky
And the birds
What lovely day?
I didn’t even dare get out of bed this morning
I took a good look at the prospect of living
And went back to sleep
We’re getting to the end of an era
To a world where all the laws will be different
Where frontiers won’t exist any more
The freedom necessary for the survival of the species
Wars don’t matter, nor religions, nor existing political
systems
A huge revolution is coming
Nothing can stop it because it will happen automatically
Almost naturally
And everyone will welcome the results
Rejoicing in the consequences
Discovering a new universe
We’ll go where it seems good to us to go
Time will no longer limit us
At the dawn of civilisation
A new age will begin
I never wanted to be different
I always wanted to be part of the group
It was never amusing to be pointed out
To have to fight
And all the rest of it
I’ve always been seen as a danger
A danger to the conformism necessary to society
So am I a danger?
Am I such a threat that I must be eliminated?
I’ve never understood why we don’t have the right to go
against the rules
Don’t have the right to say that what we learned wasn’t
true
Don’t have the right to think differently from the rest
But I’m not going to apologise
I am different
I think differently from the rest
They call me weird
They class me as dangerous
All right then, I’l